Sunday, September 16, 2018

Awaiting Torture

This whole business of nearly dying and being resuscitated is a bit new to me. Mostly it has, as you would expect with me, brought on a lot of heavy thinking about life and the meaning of fear and love and obligation and use of time. More prosaically it means rehab. 

First it meant a mundane ambulance transfer out of Jackson South to the rehab at Health South.  A rough ride on my still torn pelvis it was too. No luxury there. 

It was done late at night so I saw nothing of the world outside.  The EMT monitoring me used to live in the Lower Keys which created an instant bond. We Are Everywhere. Moving out of the hospital meant no more trauma alerts and while it is medically supervised you are presumed to have basic health status: ie breath and not be anywhere near ready to pop off.  Gone are the IVs and monitors reduced to four checks daily of blood pressure on a rolling device.  Very nice.

A long way from ICU where I lay bleeding out one end as they poured blood in the other. I arrived around ten pm Friday and as such have not yet seen the gym known to some inmates as the torture chamber. I am a little apprehensive as they say Physical Therapy is torture.  Not exercise, but making your body do what it feels it cannot do. For my part I want to walk and shit in the toilet. I hope I am ready for what is to come. 
Thanks for demanding I keep up this page.  I shall do my best to be coherent and spell checked as I type on my phone on my back through the haze of all these experiences. 



16 comments:

CeliaB said...

How you define yourself changes through experiences, age, health and injuries, if youre lucky enough to get a second chance.

Unknown said...

You're ready for whatever the torture chamber has in store for you. That visit with Rusty should renew your tenacity to get with the program and back to your life as quickly as possible. Determination and perseverance will get you where you want to be...and the love of a good woman and dog buddy. :) You can do it, Conchscooter! And we want daily progress reports, whether they're coherent or not! KWBound

Garythetourist said...

Yeah, exactly what "Unknow" said. Exactly. You've got this my friend.
Isn't it nice to have so many people in your corner? That is the real blessing, friends in your corner. You never were alone.

Anonymous said...

PT can suck, but it really helps at the other end. Having goals is a good thing. As they torture you, just remind yourself, “without going through this, i can't shit in the toilet. I can't get up the stairs to my house. I can’t get back on the new scooter. I can't go to court and sue the bejesus out of that glass bowl who drove out in front of me.” And if they torture you too much, remind them that you have a bunch of fans out here and we know where you are and will come throw little squeezy balls and big balance balls at them. ;) Stay strong! Maybe you’ll impress your yoga bro dude when you get back with all the new things you can do. ;)

Mike from Jerset said...

When I had my shoulder surgery, i was initially disappointed at the lack of progress i was making . And it hurt. A Lot. After the first 3 weeks I could actually see an improvement when i looked back at how it felt when i first came in. It's like a very slow and deliberate acceleration. Tangible Progress. And yeah, from the wilds of NJ i'm sending you encouragement. I would miss not hearing from you and your 'adventures'.

Unknown said...

Yep, PT for broken bones and torn rotator cuffs, post surgery, is excruciating, but it works. Been there, done that. And just when you think it's not working and you'll never be the same, you realize you're doing things you couldn't do before the PT, and it doesn't hurt or hurt as much. So try not to become discouraged, Michael. You will get back to walking and riding and shittin' on the toilet again. Persevere...onward and upward. KWBound ����

Unknown said...

I don't know much about PT but I do know you have a lot of followers behind you to get better for yourself and your wife. Please keep us updated on your progress as much as it may suck. Hope you are closer to home than Miami.

Doug Bennett said...

It is great news that you are improving and will be able to see Rusty soon. PT sucks and hurts like hell, but that is what it will take to try to get back to whatever normal is. With 2 knee replacements, I have had enough PT, but it works. I wish you the best in the coming trying times. Doug, This Week on the Island.

MyamuhNative said...

I'll echo what everyone else says. I've been a daily reader since you started the blog eons ago. So any post you write I will be here to read!
PT may not always be easy but it shouldn't be, you need to push past your limits,within reason,so that you gain a full recovery.
We are all with you on this- quietly cheering you on in the background. The web family that has so many members.
To that end, I've been thinking ahead to the day when you get to go home.
I had a co-worker that had similar injuries from a motorcycle accident and know he had to make his home more accessible. Wondering if a stair lift might be in your future? Surely this should be paid by the person that caused the accident but in the meantime do we need to set you up a go fund me account? I know many would chip in to help...

Anonymous said...

Conchscooter, I saw this on Facebook today and thought you may relate, especially having been the captain of your own sailboat in your life's adventures, and might apply it to your current circumstance...

"Can’t change the direction of the wind, so adjust your sails & trim it up!!"

Sail on sailor. ⛵ KWBound ������

CeliaB said...

Yes, your readers need to know daily how you're doing. One step at a time. But adaptations at home can be fantastic, if only temporary. I had a friend that loaned me some items when I broke my back, a handhold for the shower, a back brace for needing to stand until I could get the insurance lined up for the PT. On the catamaran, I had the multihulls as great walking aids for my broken leg. Maybe more handrails would help in a house, too. A chair lift might get you home faster.

Unknown said...

Absolutely! Without a second thought! Kwbound

Anonymous said...

I had such terrible leg pain a few years ago. I was 100% certain that a knee or hip replacement was imminent. With three weeks of PT I was pain free and moving like a teenager. Hang in there. Michigan best wishes.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there! Your posts are inspirational and highly appreciated.

Ryan M. - Old Town said...

Following your recovery. Glad to see progress. Get well.

Conchscooter said...

Thank you all for the kind words of support. Much appreciated.