Thursday, November 8, 2018

Slipping Away

Saturday morning at eleven o’clock a van from Key West will be here to pick me up and take me back to the city where an apartment without steps is available for me for the next month. I will be in the city where if I need help my friends will be answering 911. I have been discussing all eventualities with my therapists and feel reasonably confident I can cope with showering and dressing and strengthening my legs by walking.

I have my tools to get dressed, I have my tools to go to the toilet and I have my tools for propulsion. I know how to use them.  All that is left is to get stronger then I cast them off. It’s time to go. 

I am healthy and ready and I know the good things to come, being with Layne and hopefully being able to help not hinder. To have Rusty alongside daily. To be in the world and yet I have a heavy heart. These people gave me back my life. They never gave up on me. They took me when I couldn’t sit up in bed and made me whole.  Along the way I have cracked jokes and devoted myself to completing the exercises. I am sorry to be going. I know it sounds odd but going home fills me with fear.  

Loren is away on vacation and we struggled to hold back tears as we said goodbye. Eddy is off tomorrow so he and I won’t work together again. He got my legs working against the odds and against my natural absence of coordination.  He too will be gone forever as soon as I write this. 

Natalie and her Bucci will be no more, perfectly sweet strong Cuban coffee to start each afternoon session. Soon I will be among the able bodied stumping to keep up.  Going home? They say. Lucky you! I suppose so I say. It must be good because I am getting better.  That doesn’t ease the heartbreak.

12 comments:

Unknown said...

Parting is such 'bittersweet'sorrow. A new chapter beginning as this one comes to a close. New adventures on the horizon. We'll be here with you all the way, Conchscooter. Cheering you on in the next chapter. Go, Michael, go! KWBound

Anonymous said...

Still praying for you from Queens NY

Anonymous said...

it won't be that long before you can send all of them a photo of yourself walking Rusty unencumbered by walker or cane or anything. :-) (and maybe a box of cookies or something, too.)

MyamuhNative said...

We make our family in many ways.Hope you have invited them to the Key West Diary family so we can join in thanking them for helping you heal.

And doubly happy that you will be back with Layne and Rusty soon.

Bruce & Celia said...

Excellent news Michael! One more step along a difficult road. Congratulations on your 'graduation'.

David Masse said...

Congratulations Michael!

Doug Bennett said...

Two things: 1- I have a walker with wheels and breaks and a seat. You are welcome to use it. 2- I found to get in the tub to take a bath, I sit on the edge, grab the opposite side of the tub, put one leg in the tub and then slid down into the tub and put the other leg in. Getting out I do the opposite, but it takes quite a bit of upper body strength. One leg, then the butt, then the other leg. Don't fall backwards into the tub.

Unknown said...

Yeah, the rolling walkers with the seat and storage are the way to go. And they fold up nicely for transporting. KWBound

Terri Kohler said...

Great news but a little scary for you I'm sure. As you go Conchy Tonkin fro Miami South you will be looking at it with a new set of eyes, heart and soul. . Rusty will be super excited. Keep on keepin on

RichardM said...

Congratulations! That is great news!

Anonymous said...

I’m happy to hear how well you are doing. Your therapy center seems like a wonderful place with smart, caring, and hard working people. Hats off to all. A job well done on the part of all. Best wishes, Michigan.

Conchscooter said...

I did finally introduce them to this page but they are young and I am wordy.
I liked the idea of the rolling walker with a seat and brakes but Eddy says in
my condition it’s dangerous for me as it would likely slip out from under me
in a crisis. I will have to use my wheelchair at work because it won’t slip out
from under me as I get up like a chair on rollers would.
My legs are stiff and weak.